Title: weighing choices
Tags: Decisions
Blog Entry: Hello , I am a 57 years youg grandmother. ( if I knew grandchildern were so much fun I would have had them first!) LMAO I have been fighting an infection for over 4 and a half years in my left knee.. it started when I had a knee replacement that went bad after just three days. and for 6 months the doc did nothing about it. But thats old water. Now I have had 5 surgeries and mega pain since. The infection level is up again and I have to make a decision about keeping or loosing the leg.I have become somene I dont like due to having to be debendant on others and not myslf.. I am trying to come back and be me again but all the situations are clouding that effort.I feel like a prisioner of this leg and now the big question mark on my back. now looking at my 6 th surgery I am weary and tired of all the IV antibiotics and hospitals and rehabs.. But mostly tired of all the pain.I Hate pain meds.. but have to break down and tke them.. I am tired of loosing hair due to the high powerd antibiotics and meds. I have to make this decision with in a few weeks and trying to make a mostly educated decision instead of a totally emotional one. I do not want to be a bother to anyone.. but I do have questions and I can asure you I am sinceer. I have thought about the amputation for a while now and did the lists.. Take,Keep and all the pros and cons of each one.The two choces are to either fuse the knee.. or amputate it. Fusion is not an answer for me.. SO.. the educated part of says do it and get on with your life.. The other says.. no.. try again.. I feel the educated part of me will win.. but, I still haave questions and thoughts that I would like to descuss with anyone that has time to chat or leave me e=mail.. IF you wish to leve me an email.. please do so at. cupie55@att.net or here on this web site. Thank you for reading this.. and may GOD bless! cupie aka Penny:angel:
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